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When the healer isn't feeling well

You may (or may not) have noticed that I haven't been writing as much.  You might have chalked it up to the fact that I just released a manual on crystals, or that I am doing design work for others, or that I am enjoying the last days of summer.

& while all of those things are true, the core of the matter is this:

I just haven't been feeling well.

For the past couple of months, I've had some strange body symptoms.  I didn't let this get me down at first.  I figured bodies shift and change over time and this can cause funky things to go on.  I went to the doctor's office I don't even know how many times this summer, and each time I was dismissed with a clean bill of health.  I passed all of their tests with flying colors, so I was reassured that I shouldn't worry about anything.

Until things continued and I started searching for my symptoms in Google.

Here's a good tip:  Don't use google to search for your symptoms or you will end up getting totally freaked out.

So yeah.  I started to freak out.  I almost fainted (literally).  I did a lot of crying.  A lot of processing.  A lot of worrying. 

I think I am one of the lucky ones, though.  I think I am okay.  I think that my scary symptoms are caused by Lyme Disease, which is treatable.

I am so so very lucky because my doctor is educated on Lyme Disease and gave me antibiotics.  

I am especially lucky because I have a good friend who is an expert at helping people with Lyme Disease (Amy Hendrickson) working on me every day. If you know or suspect that you have Lyme Disease, I cannot recommend Amy enough.  I started to feel better with Amy's guidance even before I started antibiotic treatment.  Talk to her if you feel called to do so. 

I am also lucky because as an energy healer, I can work on myself. 

After just a couple days supported in this way, I am starting to feel better.  And I am so so thankful.

I am determined to heal.

I have learned a lot this week.  I started to fully live in the present moment.  I started saying "yes" to opportunities that involved fun that I might have otherwise said "no" to.  I danced with such vibrancy at an Arcade Fire concert that it was a spiritual experience. 

I started to connect even deeper with my inner self, my inner shaman and healer.  My meditations have been deep and full of soul and spirit.  I feel like I have learned a little bit more about the mystery of myself.  Within my heart is where my higher self dwells, and I have been listening to her with reverence.  I believe that on account of this, the Intuitive Reiki Sessions I have been doing for others this week have been more powerful than usual.  Funny how that works.

I am one of the lucky ones.  This has been my mantra.  Because in the wake of all that is going on in the world, I know this to be true.

 

 

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