I've been listening to my inner voice, to those nudges that come out of nowhere. I've been listening to what I need, honoring it, encouraging it. I am aware that when I give myself the gift of what I need, I am able to give myself to others in a more true way. I am a better healer, a better partner, a better teacher, a better me. The more I honor myself, the more I feel at peace.
& what is it that I need?
I need an hour of quiet every morning to drink tea. The dawn and I commune, we cherish our time together. I love the newness of it all.
I need some movement most days. I need to remember I am strong. I swing kettlebells, practice yoga, go running, or just challenge myself in some way. This movement reminds me that I am alive. It reminds me that my body is capable of crazy things.
Some days, I need complete rest. I need to linger, I need to nourish. It is difficult to give myself the gift of rest, but I am always thankful for when I let myself cherish the softness of it all fully.
I need love. I need quality time with my mister. I need to hug him, kiss him, play with his hair, joke with him, and cuddle with him. His heart and my heart are intertwined; they work best when near each other.
I need a little bit of a mess. My work space is never exactly clean. Neither is the kitchen, the bed room, or any room in the house. Maybe I don't *need* a bit of mess....but I need to honor that it will always be there. I don't mind it really and striving for the perfect house is not worth it in the grand scheme of things.
I need healthy food. These days, I'm not hungry very much. But when I am hungry, I need a well-rounded plate full of protein, fats, and carbs. I need LOTS of veggies. I need a little bit of dark chocolate. I need to eat slowly, really tasting each bite, free from distractions. I eat in the present moment and let the meal interact with my senses.
I need space. Space for quiet, for meditation, for no plans. Space to move about, to dance, to run. The space between breaths, between thoughts, between activities, between days.
I need support. Friends, in real life and online. We huddle together, we nourish each other, we cheer each other on.
I need to love myself. Positive thoughts about myself and my body are essential to my well-being. I hereby vow to not sink into a downward spiral of self-hate and resentment. I will never be what the media says is perfect, but I am perfect how I am. My imperfections add character, they give me a sense of strength, a sense of fuck-it-all, I am me, deal with it. YES.
I need to create. Whether its art, anointing oils, a blog post, or a poem, creating fuels me forward.
I need to give. I need to share healing. I need to exchange words, encouragement, rituals. Sending Reiki, pulling a Tarot card, working with crystal energy...this inner medicine woman//healer is who I am. Embracing that here in this space makes me feel whole.
I need, I want, but at the same time, I release. I realize I can not always have all of these things. I am here, bowing with gratitude to the fact that I have all that it is that I need right now. I am so utterly blessed.
So tell me: What do you need?